Life . . .
It changes with each and every season.
There are seasons of great happiness,
seasons of great sorrow
and seasons of everything in between.
Lately I have to confess,
I've been on a roller coaster.
Some days have been so full
that I've hardy had time to breathe.
Other days are so laid back
that I look at the clock and it
doesn't seem to move.
I've always been a go-getter,
full on energy and always looking ahead
for the next project or adventure,
but lately I have days
when I need a boost to
sometimes get moving.
Is it my age, is it these unsettled times,
is it that without Steve around
it's just hard to make plans and dreams?
I get the necessities done.
Nothing seems to be fun anymore.
Now, I know for a fact that life is not suppose
to always be a big bowl of cherries . . .
and in fact it's in the hard places
that we sometimes grow
closer to our Lord . . .
at least that has been my experience.
Life . . .
I'm taking it one day at a time,
watching with eagerness for the day
my Lord will take me home.
Oh, I don't have a death wish . . .
please don't read that into it.
I just see so many things happening that
makes me think His return will be soon.
Maybe in my lifetime . . .
Maybe not.
He is not bound by time
and as far as that goes . . .
not even our Savior knows day and time
of His return,
Only The Father!
There is an award winning documentary
out on DVD called
Before The Wrath
if you have not seen it,
I recommend it, it will amaze you.
It's not so much about when, but why.
If you watch it, I would love to hear
what you think.
Well, that's my post for today.
God bless you all
and have a great day!
Connie :)
Oh dear Connie! After nearly 40 years of marriage, I can't even imagine either one of us trying to make a new life without the other one. You are very courageous and stronger than you know! Praying this is a season that will pass for you. I get that about "being ready." Shouldn't we be? And not love this world too much. It is no longer a world I recognize but while we are still here, He must have more for us to do. I can't wait to see that documentary. Hugs
ReplyDeleteAs sensitive people, we definitely feel a lot. And I know we can go through all kinds of emotions, many times all in a single day. I'm hoping the Spring brings more sunshine and energy for things that bring you happiness. Take care of yourself dear one!
ReplyDeleteDear Connie, I'm thinking of you so much, even as I care for my very unwell husband. Hugs.
ReplyDeleteI love those windmill cookies. My grandma used to have them around when I was a kid. Thanks for the memory. :)
ReplyDeleteLife is full of ups and downs, but isn't it nice to know that God cares and is always there for us.
Our theme at church for this year is 'Maybe Today'. Easy to believe that the rapture is close at hand. : )
I know exactly what you mean. Some days I am very busy and time flies by while other days I have no energy or motivation to do anything. While I don't totally hate living alone I do hate having to make every decision by myself. Living life alone isn't always bad but it isn't always fun either.
ReplyDeleteFirst time replying. I hear you. You basically said everything I think about from time to time. I'll check out the video. God Bless you.
ReplyDeleteDear Connie, I can't even imagine life without my Tim, and how hard it would be to not have him loving me. After such a long time together, it's reasonable to suppose that adjusting to this new reality will take a long time, too. Praying that you will experience joyful moments each day.
ReplyDeleteI'm thinking of you and hoping that you find the strength and courage to keep bravely facing each new day without your sweetheart.
ReplyDeleteIt is such a huge adjustment to our lives when we lose our other half and grief takes many different forms and can reappear at the most unexpected times. Can I be encouraging and say you are doing the right thing just taking one day at a time? Just go with the flow, trust in our Lord for all things, and don't worry when dull days come along. Slowly, slowly, I am finding my own way back into life. It is a different life, (and sometimes a little saddening), and I am become a different person, but I know our God is in charge of all things and everything will be right in the end :)
ReplyDeleteMay God's blessing be with you, Mxx
Hi CONNIE- I guess one of the better things to do is to immerse ourselves into a Project- I know it is sort of 'diversional therapy'..though I find it works well and especially an interesting Project keeps us going. Best Wishes. KEV.
ReplyDeleteSending hugs your way Connie, I wonder if it isn't a mix of things that you are feeling the way you are. It sure is weird when our outlook and habits and dreams change so dramatically that is for sure. I think it is sometimes hard to find the new normal in life, I pray you are able to do that. Looks like you have made a wonderful sitting space on your front porch.
ReplyDeleteTake care my friend, may God lead you in the direction he has for the rest of your life!
Hello Connie:
ReplyDeleteIt was good to read your post today. I can't even begin to tell you how many people I have talked to that have the same opinion as you do. The Lord definitely has a plan. I know "soon" means something different to Him when He sees eternity in the blink of an eye, but with the world the way it is and seeing Bible prophecy fulfilled before our eyes, it sure makes me think it might be on the sooner side of soon!
I don't know what I would do without Dennis, just as I'm sure you felt about Steve, but God does give us the grace and courage to go on, even if we would rather not. You have been an inspiration and a blessing to so many of us my friend. Please take care of yourself and know that you are loved. And there is absolutely nothing wrong with taking it easy and having a down day sometimes.
Blessings, love and hugs,
Betsy
I think it is all the above you mentioned...being without your dear husband, aging, and the state of the world. Much love and prayers to you, dear friend.
ReplyDeleteA lovely post, so thoughtful...
ReplyDeleteA warm hug from Titti
I am sending you ((hugs)). I have no words. I pray you find peace to just take one day at a time, be busy when the spirit moves you and take it easy when it doesn't.
ReplyDeleteOh Connie I feel you and your pain... I know too that some days I have lots of energy, only to find that the next day I'm down in the dumps again and have NO energy, to even to the necessary things. I sometimes wonder how that happens.. the ups.. then the downs.. then all of a sudden, I'm up again, for a day or two. As you do, I am trying to live each day as it is presented to me. If I feel slow and down and no energy, I just try to go with it and enjoy sitting and reading or just dabbling on the computer as that's about all I feel like doing. Some days I'm thankful for my computer! And if I get a bee in my bonnet one day, I just ask myself, what thing is it on my "to do" list that has been bugging me the most? and then I try to take care of that.. and it is such a good feeling when I actually get it done! Life is pretty darned lonely without our spouse, that's for sure.. even friends don't fill that empty spot. I pray that with time, that empty hole will close in somewhat so that I can feel more whole again, and you too. Sending hugs and love.. Marilyn
ReplyDeleteConnie I do think that those feelings we all have from time to time...I know I do. Having lost someone close (my mom) it is natural to have sad moments. After my dad passed away she told me nothing was fun anymore. She missed him so much as we all did. Too the times we are seeing has to make us wonder and keep our eyes pointed upward. We know for certain He will return and we know it will be a total surprise when He comes back. With that thought our faith grows and that perhaps sums up what I am learning about life...it is uncertain but He is always Near. Sending you a huge hug.
ReplyDeleteConnie, I just love your porch. I love that you shared your feelings, it is not an easy thing to do. I miss my hubby and his body is still here. Still there are good days and we cherish those days.
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